Rings, Godzilla and one crazy dreamscape

Reading dream sequences in books is eye-roll-inducing. With few exceptions (in my mind, anyway), including a character’s “dream” seems to be a thinly-veiled way of dumping information on how they’re really “feeling” without actually spelling out how they feel. We all subscribe to the “show, don’t tell” policy, and I guess some writers think that counts. Except it totally doesn’t.

I now recognize the irony of writing a blog post about a recent dream I had, then, but I’m mercurial. It’s just how I roll.

So. My dream. It’s nighttime and I’m running through my grandparents’ house, the one where I spent countless summers growing up. In my dreams, I’m always in or around Grandma and Grandpa’s house; it’s a safe zone, if you will. My happy place. Whenever something crazy is going on, returning to the scene of my youth is a balm for the soul. So it makes sense that Dream Megan would run there at the first sign of the apocalypse.

There’s always some crazy natural disaster happening in my dreamscape. Usually tornadoes.

But this time? It’s Godzilla. Like — that Godzilla. Mind you, I’ve never seen a “Godzilla” flick and don’t plan to, though I can understand the fun and campy value of such a thing. But apparently Godzilla is coming and my small town is battenin’ down the hatches, if you will, because Stuff Is About To Go Down and I’m going to be in the middle of it. I’m racing through town in a car that’s not really my car, but apparently Dream Megan is rich and owns an expensive, sleek automobile. In black.

I arrived at my grandparents’ house, intending to reunite with my family, and I see everyone — parents, sister, aunts and uncles — but realize I’m missing something: a black and onyx ring. Dream Spencer has proposed to Dream Megan with this dark ring, and it’s been lost in my desperation to flee a destructive monster. And that’s not going to work for me.



{Photo from Reeds Jewelers}


Risking life and limb, I leave the sanctuary of my grandparent’s house to search for the ring. I retrace my footsteps. It’s pouring rain and Dream Megan is hysterical, crying and screaming for someone to help her find this weird engagement ring. No one does. Perhaps realizing I’m going out of my ever-lovin’ mind, family members try to restrain me — but I can’t be deterred. Even as Godzilla’s shadow looms and the screams of neighborhood children pour into the streets, Dream Megan is out there stupidly fumbling in the grass in search of a hunk of rock and metal.

Like that thing will help when Godzilla swallows me whole.

I don’t usually remember my dreams. Aside from the ones where tornadoes are looming in the distance, inching closer as I stand before a window, I usually don’t recall anything about my nocturnal imaginings. The scary ones typically include me failing to scream for help when I desperately need to, and that’s pretty much what happened here.

But this one felt so real.

I expected to find the missing ring on my hand when I woke up.

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Do you remember your dreams? Ever have one about monsters or missing jewelry? Any thoughts on what this mess might be saying about me?


And I said, ‘What about a ring from Tiffany’s?’

We all know that I love jewelry and, like most people, attach a certain meaning to each piece I wear. Whether it’s a gift from a family member, friend, boyfriend or something I chose and created for myself, knowing that each piece has a story behind it — even if it’s only significant to me — is important.

So last fall, thick in the middle of a rather low point in recent memory, I made a spur-of-the-moment decision to visit California with some girlfriends last November. We all remember I was feeling low, dejected, bored and listless — frustrated that my life had gotten “off track.” Heading to Los Angeles (from my home in Maryland) was a really, really uncharacteristic thing for me to do, but it seemed like the right call. My hands shook as I purchased the plane ticket and asked for time off at work, but the gnawing urge to get away was too strong for me to ignore.

Once in L.A., my friends and I ambled along Wilshire Boulevard and looked at all the pretty storefronts full of shiny things. After window shopping for most of the afternoon, my breath caught as one of the ladies suggested detouring into Tiffany & Co. With my scuffed flip-flops and flyaway hair, I wasn’t exactly feeling like a member of the “elite” clientele — but I went in, anyway.

And when the girls started trying on rings, all of us admiring the way the silver flashed in the California light, I tried some on, too.

And when my friends began to earnestly ask the cost of some of the rings and share meaningful looks with me, seeming to ask me a question, I smiled back.

We all bought rings at Tiffany that day — something I would never have imagined myself doing. The silver band with tiny “xoxo” in a repeating pattern fits perfectly on the middle finger of my right hand, its home for the past four months. I wear it every single day and, despite having rarely worn a ring on that finger before, I now feel naked without it. Take a peek at any photo of me and you’ll probably see it — just a flash of silver on my hand.

Every time I look down, I remind myself of everything I want from life — and how I’m going to get it. It’s become a symbol of everything unpredictable and glorious about living, and helps me remember to take risks and step outside of what’s comfortable and familiar. Because I went to California, 3,000 miles away! I healed my broken heart! I kept living and moving and breathing!

Nothing could mean more to me than an expensive ring I own . . . and bought myself. In the most cliche sense imaginable, it’s the gift that keeps on giving.

Etsy Find Fridays: Briolettes all around

I love that in my frequent travels of the Internet, it never fails that I’ll come across something exciting and different and awesome and realize, Hey. This totally fulfills a need in my life that I didn’t even know I needed filled. Today, friends, I’m talking about the briolette — a teardrop-shaped stone (or gem, or anything) that I’ve always admired but never knew had a name. That’s silly of me, considering everything has a name! I just have to find out what it is.

But yes — the briolette. Gorgeous, sparkly and lovely dangling from a chain, wire or strand of silver (or gold, whatever your fancy). Today’s edition of Etsy find Fridays is dedicated to jewelry bearing my new obsession! Sit back and try not to get drool all over keyboard. Or is that just me . . . ?


Long briolette necklace by BrittanyChavers, $8

Sterling lotus with crystal briolette by liliswan, $22

Coronet earrings by PoleStar, $35

Dark galaxy earrings by AnnaArtiste, $26

Dark galaxy earrings by AnnaArtiste, $26

Etsy Find Fridays: Autumn love

How easy is it to fall in love with fall? The gorgeous colors and changing of the leaves make me want to throw my camera around my neck and run to the nearest park, where I could wander around for hours. Since time doesn’t allow me to be a traveling amateur photographer, I’m going to take pictures of what I can — and turn to my one of my favorite sites, Etsy, for the rest of my seasonal spirit!

Whether you’re looking for a nice, cozy scarf (like me!) or a pair of sparkly acorn earrings, Etsy is brimming with gorgeous fall items. And I know I sound like I’m writing ad copy right now — not that that would be a stretch for me or anything — but believe me when I tell you that I lust after these things all on my own . . . the last thing I need is any encouragement (unfortunately)! I just can’t seem to get enough of the gorgeous baubles and bobs all over the website.

And now, I present a few of my favorite autumnal things . . .

can you feel the cold breeze already?



Fall leaves translucent resin earrings by UnderGlass, $15

Fall leaves translucent resin earrings by UnderGlass, $15

Autumn leaves journal by burgundydistrict, $14

Autumn leaves journal by burgundydistrict, $14

Perfect acorns brass earrings by BeadsByEvelyn, $14

Perfect acorns brass earrings by BeadsByEvelyn, $14

Leafy peace sign appliques by sweet3leafprints, $8

Leafy peace sign appliques by sweet3leafprints, $8

Marigold necklace by LeClairRoseDesigns, $17

Marigold necklace by LeClairRoseDesigns, $17

fall into autumn scarf by ME!, $12

fall into autumn scarf by ME!, $12

‘My thoughts create my world’

IMG_7526Since discovering Megan McCafferty’s Jessica Darling series in the spring, I’ve made absolutely no secret of my complete obsession with the novels. There’s something so serious, tender, and honest about them — I connected with Jessica and Marcus’s love story so much more than any other I’ve ever read! And since it was carried out over the course of five (big) books, it’s a good thing I was totally digging it. (Oh, I so was.)

Of all the wonderful passages and quotable quotes in the books, one really stood out to me above all others: “My thoughts create my world.” The saying first appears — and becomes important — in Charmed Thirds, the third book in the series, when Marcus Flutie gives Jessica her Christmas present.

We made gifts for each other. … Marcus is friends with a silversmith — yes, a silversmith — who taught him how to make a ring out of a quarter. He somehow soldered a message for me in teeny script: ‘My thoughts create my world.’

Jess takes the message to be some sort of commentary on Marcus’s burgeoning Buddhist ideals and lifestyle, and she can’t help but toss the phrase back at him when, shortly thereafter, they get into a huge argument about Marcus leaving town (again) and embarking on a journey of “silent meditation” — meaning no talking to Jess, or anyone. Bewildered and crushed that she’s going to lose him all over again, Jessica says:

I am so sick of your Buddhist wisdom! It’s bumper-sticker wisdom! T-shirt wisdom! My thoughts create my world. I’m so tired of being scrutinized through your goddamn third eye!

The ring is unceremoniously flung back at him, where Marcus safely tucks it away in a pocket. Time passes with Jessica still thinking about that tiny silver ring . . . and Marcus’s message (and desire to be devoted) to her. Memories flood back as she speaks with a mentor several years later.

“You have the eye of a reporter and the heart of a novelist,” he [Mac] said. “But you have much to learn, Ms. Darling. I’ll make sure you don’t throw away your gifts.”

For someone like Mac to believe so deeply in my potential, well, it nearly made me weep with gratitude. Even now, I don’t think he has a clue just how much his words have done for me. …

“What are your thoughts?”

“My thoughts?” I replied, before I even realized what I was saying. “My thoughts create my world.”

Mac sat up in his seat. He scrunched his curls with his hands, perplexed. “Who said that?”

I told him the truth.

“Oh, just someone I used to know,” I said, stroking the naked skin on my middle finger.

And even more time goes by before our heroine and hero are reunited — and the ring is returned to her, kept safely by Marcus the entire time they were apart. When he returns it to Jessica in Fourth Comings, it accompanies something enormous: a proposal.

You chewed on the leather to undo the knot that usually rested on the nape of your neck. You removed the ring from the necklace, took my hand, and put it on the fourth finger of my left hand.

“This always belonged to you.”

. . . All that time, you wore the ring, my ring, around your neck. You wore it in my absence, and then after our reunion. You wore it knowing that it would one day return to its intended, when the moment was just right.

Lately, I’ve been looking for my own “right moment” — a sign that great things are just around the corner and, as John Mayer croons, that “good love is on the way.” A friend recently showed me a gorgeous ring she bought for herself after parting ways with her longtime boyfriend, and I was touched at what it obviously meant to her. It was a sign of strength, a sign that she’s holding her heart close in preparation for giving it to the right person . . . at the right moment.

And I knew I needed my own reminder that I’m doing the same — and that I’m the one controlling my happiness, and the one responsible for my joy.

So I knew just what I needed.

My ring is silver, like Jessica’s, and also bears Marcus Flutie’s immortal words: “My thoughts create my world.” It arrived this morning, custom made by Samantha Bird of Nest In Bloom Design, and I couldn’t possibly love it more! I’ve slipped it onto my own ring finger, where I imagine it will stay for quite some time.

After all, it’s just the sort of mantra I’ve been looking for! Because I’m writing a powerful, moving, life-altering and emotional “coming of age” story, too — my own.


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Etsy finds: Let’s get royal with it

I know everyone must be sick to death of hearing about my dumb ol’ trip to London already, but let me tell you — in Meg’s world, this is still the big news! And you only have to suffer through two more weeks before I’m there already, and then read the massive blog entry that will surely follow with all my crazy photos and hilarious commentary.

Hopefully.

But before we can get to the wrap-up, we have to continue living with the anticipation! And since I’m in full-blown planning mode and spending quite a bit of time thinking about King Henry VIII and all the very royal history of my beloved city, I’m presenting my favorite regal pieces this week! And who hasn’t dream of being a prince or princess at some point — especially on laundry day? Yeah, it would be pretty sweet to have a handmaiden to take care of all those pesky tasks. I’ll keep dreaming. And as always, check out Etsy for all sorts of fun!


Vintage glitter crown ring by PlumAdore, $7.50

Vintage glitter crown ring by PlumAdore, $7.50

Signature of Anne Boleyn, Tudor queen pendant by FunckLoveDesigns, $9

Signature of Anne Boleyn, Tudor queen pendant by FunckLoveDesigns, $9

King Bird archival print by TheNightjar, $20

King Bird archival print by TheNightjar, $20

Victorian brass crown ring by CosmicFirefly, $14.50

Victorian brass crown ring by CosmicFirefly, $14.50

Queenie Elizabeth brooch by lovelysweetwilliam, $15

Queenie Elizabeth brooch by lovelysweetwilliam, $15

Miss Drama Queen original art ACEO by catlover1, $5.50

Miss Drama Queen original art ACEO by catlover1, $5.50

Etsy Finds: Cameos

Genetics, senses of humor and outstanding good looks aren’t enough for me to share with my mom and sister — we just have to all love cameos, too! I’ll admit that Kate and Mom share a love of them that’s perhaps a bit more intense than mine, but I can certainly appreciate the old-fashioned beauty while admiring the contemporary way in which many are updated these days!

You can find a cameo to represent pretty much anything or anyone . . . and choose from vintage pieces, contemporary ones or something a little bit in the middle! I love the fad of cameo rings now, and have to stop myself daily from clicking that pesky little “add to cart” button on Etsy. I’ve been a good girl, though! With London on the horizon — less than a month to go! — I’m trying to hold on to my cash in order to buy even more of the tackiest, whackiest and most “British” stuff I can find in the city. Cheers!


Handpainted Victorian sisters/friends cameo necklace by daliadaliak, $17.99

Handpainted Victorian sisters/friends cameo necklace by daliadaliak, $17.99

Large London cameo ring by amylynnbuttchin, $8

Large London cameo ring by amylynnbuttchin, $8

Kitty cameo by Ritzyknits, $12

Kitty cameo by Ritzyknits, $12

Carnation cameo necklace by JaneGarbini, $16

Carnation cameo necklace by JaneGarbini, $16

Iridescent vintage cameo ring by RelicsRenewed, $8

Iridescent vintage cameo ring by RelicsRenewed, $8

Skeletal seahorse cameo pendant by agonysdecay, $10

Skeletal seahorse cameo pendant by agonysdecay, $10

French rose cameo necklace by amyhatch, $23.50

French rose cameo necklace by amyhatch, $23.50

Red owl and cameo necklace by daliadaliak, $18

Red owl and cameo necklace by daliadaliak, $18