I’m back from New York — and coming to you with
some Blogtember words of wisdom today!
I’ve never been good at living in The Now.
It feels nebulous, hard to pin down.
When I was in elementary school, I couldn’t wait to be a fifth grader — oldest in the school — for the sense of power and sophistication it would grant me. Then I turned 10, got to fifth grade and . . . well, it was fun, but not all that I expected. And I couldn’t wait for middle school.
Then high school.
Then a driver’s license.
When I was single in those early days, I couldn’t wait for a boyfriend. Then I got a boyfriend — one in a string of wrong boyfriends — and . . . just wanted to be single.
I wished for freedom, for work, for life to begin. I remember visiting my future college with my dad one summer, back when I’d just received my learner’s permit. He let me drive the 45 minutes to campus on the Beltway, ever mindful of passing traffic, and I fell in love with the sense of independence that came from walking around the University of Maryland. Though I still had my senior year of high school to look forward to, it lost its appeal.
I suddenly couldn’t wait to get to college. I wanted to be older, wiser, grown up.
And now I’ve been done for six years.
Growing up, I used to bounce from activity to activity, constantly asking my parents “what we’d be doing next.” Whether it was playing Uno, watching TV, making dinner or scratching out some math problems, I liked having A Plan. I wanted to always know what we’d be tackling, where we’d be going. And I simply “couldn’t wait” to get there.
But I don’t say that phrase much anymore. My mom and dad drove home one salient point as I got older: Don’t wish your life away. I spent so much time waiting, waiting, waiting to hit Point A or Point B, wanting to reach some achievement or other, when I could have been taking a nice, cool sip of Right Now.
Right Now, I’m less than 70 days from my wedding. And just three weeks from my sister’s.
Right Now, I’m enjoying the creative inspiration that comes from a fresh, new office with so. much. natural light.
Right Now, I’m going through my bridal shower gifts and writing thank-yous and thinking about how lucky and grateful I am to know such amazing people. And to be marrying into a wonderful family.
Right Now, I’m remembering the first few sips of the first pumpkin spice latte this fall.
So the Right Now? It’s pretty awesome. And standing on the brink of so much change, I can’t help but feel fortunate.
The time, these fleeting moments . . . they’re precious. With so much to look forward to, I’d never wish that away.